"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, September 14, 2003
Playlist: [none]

I think that, on a very tiny scale, old people and little kids scare me... a LOT. I mean, I have nothing against, them, although personally I quite detest most little kids (the bratty and immature bits of them, not the sweet and innocent bits), and I loved my grandparents to death while they were still alive (@___< twisted, that). What scares me is the potential for sudden demise in them. Little kids are so fragile, and old people are on the downhill of life, sliding towards that imminent, unavoidable state called death. When you take the hand of a child, or an elder, you can feel the softness, the vulnerability in the touch, and a hidden part of you may say, 'now THAT can be crushed easily'. And in old people especially, you can feel the shadow of death, in the loose way they hold your hand (although, granted, some people have amazing strength even in the twilight of their lives... >__<), and the way they seem not to be holding on very tightly when they hug. Sometimes, it's not noticeable, but when you compare the touch of a young person to the touch of an older person, you realize that there is a vitality to the young, the very proof of 'living', and a strength that seems endless, while in old people, that same vitality that speaks of life is missing, or merely exists in diminished amounts. This is mortality coming rapidly towards you, and while death isn't very scary in itself, the idea of losing someone is. So yuh, holding an old person is like holding onto an armload of crystal dishes. The potential for destruction looms in your face.

06:19 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, September 14, 2003
Playlist: [none]

<___<;; Dad is such a great cook, but when he goes grocery shopping for me, he always buys EXACTLY THE WRONG KIND OF INGREDIENTS. He'll buy stuff he used to cook for us when he and Mom were still married, and not think about the fact that my repertoire of recipes are TOTALLY DIFFERENT FROM HIS. That I can't make something with shrimp when I know know how to cook seafood yet, that I don't know how to cook meat yet so a beef flank is entirely useless (not to mention, kinda gross to have in the fridge, all bloody and meaty like that...). And he ALWAYS buys the wrong kind of oranges! I want Mineola oranges!

06:04 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, September 12, 2003
Playlist: [none]

I love the Doe, I really do. I love how quiet it is, how comfortable the chairs are, how there are like 100 computers for public use... XD; Am in b/w classes right now. Fridays are so good to me, Chem lecture in the morning (which I don't really mind because it's actually interesting), Psych discussion in the afternoon (ooh, I definitely don't mind that), and math lecture later (which I can just, yanno, nap in, if it's too unsufferable, seeing as I can just refer to the book if I have any problems) I wanted to call Maryam and go see a movie with her, but she's not answering her phone *pout*

I think, despite the relative ease of Math 1A, we're still moving pretty fast through the material. Just yesterday we were being quizzed on continuity and more epsilon-delta stuff. However, I think my GSI is kinda... going easy on us... We had two questions in the quiz, the first asking to prove a continuity, and the second to... find an interval for possible delta values. The question was that given g(x)=x^3, and the limit of g(x) as x -> 2=8, a) find an interval I such that g(x) falls within (8-1, 8+1), and b) find an interval I such that g(x) falls within (8-epsilon, 8+epsilon). I spent most of the 10 minutes staring at the board and thinking to myself, "WTF? Is this some kind of trick question? This is WAY too easy! It's like algebra or something!" and being paranoid along the same line of thought. I almost smacked my head on the table when our GSI went over the problems afterwards and said something along the lines of "just plug the numbers back to the original equation to get 3-root-7 and 3-root-9, and do the same thing for (8-epsilon, 8+epsilon). This is ELEMENTARY!! It's not even a proper test question! *rage rant whine* And here I was, expecting college calculus to be harder and faster than high school Calculus BC! I feel cheated. <_<;;

10:30 a.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Playlist:

Yes...

09:52 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Playlist:

For me, today isn't so much as Nine-One-One as it is the Moon Festival. I won't talk about 911 like so many other people seem to do, because I don't have much to say about it. I will say, though, that the moon is huge tonight; and that I hate mooncakes with a passion but wouldn't mind sitting outside and drinking a cup of tea. Bah, that's all. I had things to say earlier, but it is Thursday, and Thursdays are busy days for me, so if I remember any of the thoughts I wanted to record, I'll put 'em in later.

Well, that's not really the reason I'm laconic today. Mom's blood count's way low again, and her blood sugar is high, despite the insulin injections, which are more frequent now. Last time I talked to her, she was ready to go to the hospital for a blood transfusion, but nobody knew whether or not she has to STAY here... >__> I think I'll go call and see what's going on and whether or not she's in the hospital again...

09:34 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Playlist: From Beginning till Now - Winter Sonata

Your whole life someone has always been cheering
you on. Tennis is cool, and you are actually
pretty nifty (if not downright quirky) Win with
pride, or lose with honor it doesn't matter
because tennis is life and life is sweet. (Just
don't drink the juice...)

Which Prince of Tennis team do you belong on?
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XDXD;; Inui Juice, scarier than Guu, worse than poison. Diediedie Inui Juice!

10:01 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Playlist: Scherzo No. 2, Op 31 in B-flat minor - Chopin

drabbledrabbledrabbledrabbledrabble- *babbles on*

TIS GOODNESS!! XD XD XD!!!! *flagellates WhiteCat with endless praises* And it has a snake in it! (well, two, if you count Crowley) And it's green! And small! Have I ever mentioned how much I like little green snakes?? I truly do, I truly do.

*takes a breath* Ladies and gentlemen, the drabble I requested via AIM two nights ago, by the all-wonderful WhiteCat, because, you know, Good Omens is such a good book, Crowley and Aziraphale are so cool, and WhiteCat is such a great writer.

09:16 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Playlist:

Waah, I had a good day today... after 4:30 pm. Why? Cos THAT's when I found out I'd caught up with all my chem reading! And passed the prelab on the first try! I spent most of today, in b/w classes, curled up in the big black leather armchairs in Doe, reading the chem text. I (mistakenly) thought that last week's assignment was Ch.1, and this week's assignment was Ch.2, so I was reading near the beginning of Ch1 and thinking to myself, "hmm, we just covered that today in lecture" and when I got home, I checked the assignments online, and LO and BEHOLD! I'd just finished reading the last week's assignment today! So, basically, I'm all ready to take the HW quiz tomorrow. Ohohohohohoho! *feels smug and accomplished*

07:24 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Monday, September 8, 2003
Playlist: MaLoki OP

So, Melissa was concerned about the medicine I was taking after I told her about the possiblity of PCOS, and she did a search online for both my meds, and it turns out that the one I'm taking currently, Avandia, is for diabetes, or insulin regulation, and the other one, which I'm supposed to take as soon as my flo starts, Diane 35 is for acne treatment and... a birth control. Mostly birth control. In other words, as Nont so aptly put it, "the pill".

......... dammit, why am I taking birth control?! I'm not even having sex yet and I've definitely have NOT got acne problems! I need to go see my own doctor! *huff*

11:08 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, September 7, 2003
Playlist: My Memory - Ryu Shi Won

Seer

The ULTIMATE personality test
brought to you by Quizilla

...I have a brain? XD XD;;; (making fun of myself before anyone else can take advantage of that opening) ufufufufufu!!

03:34 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, September 7, 2003
Playlist: Chaccone for Solo Violin - Bach

So, this is what I probably have, since I was diagnosed with endocrinopathy in China, and they found cysts in my ovaries. Polycystic ovaries are the only kind of cysts that doesn't have EXTREME PELVIC PAIN as one of its symptoms. I was wrong; it didn't have anything to do with my uterus after all, but higher up...

02:52 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, September 7, 2003
Playlist: Polaris - Kang Ta

It's... *checks time* midnight, and I feel the need to blog, despite the fact that I should really read some chapters from the Psych textbook before I go to bed.

I suppose, to start off, I should post my schedule.
Monday: 9-10 Chem 1A Lec.; 10-11 Psych 1 Lec.; 3-4 Math 1A Lec.
Tuesday: 8-9:30 Math 1A Dis.; 9:30-11 Chinese 7A Lec.
Wednesday: 9-10 Chem 1A Lec.; 10-11 Psych 1 Lec.; 2-3 Chinese 7A Dis.; 3-4 Math 1A Lec.
Thursday: 8-9:30 Math 1A Dis.; 9:30-11 Chinese 7A Lec.; 1-5 Chem 1A Lab
Friday: 9-10 Chem 1A Lec.; 1-2 Psych 1 Dis.; 3-4 Math 1A Lec.

And then, I generally tutor English on MTWThS, ranging from 1-2 hours per day, to these two Chinese girls. So that's usually from 5-7, except on Tuesdays and Thursday, which will have to be later because I want to join the badminton club at school, and their hours are 5-7 TTh and some other times around the weekend. Because the house-moving took a long time, I'm a little behind on the reading for all of my classes, but I hope to catch up on at least some, tomorrow. I finished the week's math assignment today, did 2 hours of tutoring (got paid for the first week today XDXD), and am generally feeling good and optimistic towards the week to come, despite the fact that I DO have a lot of work yet to be done. However, I'm not sure I like how I'm handling my schedule right now, because I feel like I waste a lot of time bustling back and forth between home and campus (it's about an hour, roundtrip, if the Perimeter is nice and arrives on time like it should). Generally, I tried to bulk my classes together, but there are always a few that's sorta out of the way, and the intervening time isn't really enough for me to go home or get any studying done. For one, I try to avoid bringing my books to campus, because they're really heavy and often I have to bring other stuff for the day's classes that just makes my load a lot heavier than it should be. While I was in China, I got used to walking around with nothing but the clothes off my back, since it's really too hot to expend extra energy in carrying things around with you. I got used to wearing really light and skimpy clothes and sandals; I even threw away my one remaining pair of jeans because they were getting heavy and raggedy and the bare thought of them made me break out in a sweat (and so, I don't have a single pair of jeans, which is bothersome, because most of my wardrobe is built around jeans...) Anyway, when I'm packing for class in the morning, it takes some hard convincing to make me put even 2 notebooks in my backpack, because even 2 notebooks feels too heavy. And since it's still hot out, well... >__>

My chemistry class is about as hard as I expected it to be. I don't think I'll have a problem if I had enough time to read everything that I'm supposed to, twice. So I'll have to catch up first and make some time later. My Psych 1 class is... big. There are about 200 people in the waiting list, and they're trying to fit everyone into one lecture, which is insane because Psych 1 is a really popular course, especially among freshman. I was originally enrolled in the class, so no worries for me in terms of being waitlisted, but then I did something stupid in the first week of school and accidentally dropped the class, then re-enrolled, thus placing me at #184 on the waiting list for getting into the class. Fortunately, they WILL fit everyone into the class and the discussion sections, so I don't have to worry. Math 1A is ridiculously easy, but the professor is ridiculously... bad. She's very fluttery and nervous-like and doesn't make much sense when she lectures. She talks too fast, fumbles with everything, uses the blackboard eraser backwards and wonders why it won't erase, and gives off the impression that she's on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I decided to stop listening to her in lecture after she tried to explain delta-epsilon proofs and ended up confusing everyone. Unfortunately, her lecture is the only math 1A lecture that fits in my schedule, so poo. Her grading policy is as follows: midterms - 20% each, discussion section (hw, quizzes, etc.) - 10%, final- 50%... T____T I will say now that I've never been really good at taking tests, especially those math-oriented. So, even if this class is easy and a tedious waste of time for me, I will still have to study hard in order not to fail the tests... this is starting to bring back the horror of the AP Calculus BC test, even though I passed it pretty well. My 4th class was originally Chinese Drama, which was extremly interesting, but the professor had a bad back, so the class was cancelled in the first week. -_____-;;; One of the reasons I liked it so much was that a lot of the yuan plays we would have read were ones that I knew of, so it was like a visit to the literary world of my childhood. Another reason was that it was the first class ever in America where a non-Chinese pronounced my distinctive, ill-lucked name correctly. XD XD XD;; *is deeply moved* I hope to take it another semester, so I'm keeping the texts that I bought for the class. Replacing Chinese Drama was Introduction to Chinese Literature and Culture, which had seemed interesting from its description, but is merely literature from before the unification of China (waaaaay old stuff) and the Analects (Confucius). It's definitely not as interesting and entertaining as yuan plays and zaju that I'd have read in Chinese Drama, but it's informative, and casts a somewhat new light on the culture of China before, during, and after the Spring and Autumn period, although I still go through most of the class nodding my head and going, 'uh huh, uh huh, this sounds all so familiar...' I've learned one thing, though: Confucius must have had something up his ass all his life. Aiyaaa, I was disrespectful to dead (possible) ancestors! I must now kowtow and repent and burn incense and follow all rites and rituals down to the very last minuit detail so that I shall not anger my dead ancestors they who are like gods to me and who bestow their powers from the great Yellow Springs beyond so that I shall go through life with luck and blessings and make ritual sacrifices to them at various days of the week and prepare a place for myself among them when I am dead. *cough* What a way of life. I mean, yes, somewhere deep down inside I do believe that all my ancestors are watching over me and that it is completely blasphemous to say or do anything that will either offend my ancestors or have the family line end at me altogether, such as, say, declaring, "I shall not marry EVER", or, stop taking my medicine so that my uterus WILL develop problems and not extending my side of the family tree. Heh. *Guu-smile* Eeh, now my train of thought has derailed.

One of the things I really dislike about living at home is that I really am not meeting new people this way. It's a big problem for me, because even though it's always fun to hang out with old friends, many of whom are going to Cal anyway, it's different because they're still the ONLY people I can hang out with, since I don't have the benefit of knowing an entire HALL full of people. Being out of touch with campus activities is also a bad idea, but, well, since I don't have that much time to spend on other activities, it's probably just as well. Another thing that bothers me is how much I have to clean up after myself. It's not easy to live in an apartment and be responsible for yourself, especially when you don't have the time to do everything you need to do. I probably have time to cook a real meal once a week, and the rest of the time I either starve, get away with cup noodles, or order take-out (which I'm loathe to do, since I spent a LOT of money recently). I think maybe I mentioned the fact that I cooked Mapo Tofu for the first time for the Labor Day Block Party, which turned out pretty well. And then on Thursday, I make leek with fried eggs, which I love and made sure I knew how to cook it and cook it well, as well as tomatos with fried eggs, which sounds and looks rather yucky but tastes wonderful nevertheless. And the thing was, I'd never made it before, and I was distracted while cooking anyway, so I thought about it, and decided that I'd be a pretty good cook if I had the interest, had a long enough attention span to make sure nothing burned, and had more time to practice. The fact that all my previous cooking attempts before this year has ended in burned pots is non-relative, since I never stayed in the kitchen long enough to see a dish cooked through. Anyway, I count it as a blessing to be able to toss something together and make it well based on memories of how Mom cooked. The bed is also a problem, since it's my mom's and is a lot bigger, but not as long as my old futon. So, when I sleep, my feet tend to stick out over the end of the bed if I snuggle too deep. I really dislike that... <__<;; The closet space is also a lot smaller in my mom's room, so I ended up throwing away some clothes. I might have to throw away some more before long. I also have too many books to fit onto the two bookcases that I have in the room. Problematic, too, since all the storage space is already taken up, and there's only so much I can fit into a box to go under the bed. Yesterday I moved some stuff around from where I'd originally put them, and cleared out some wall space for the Kang Ta poster. My room is looking good right now, ignoring the mound of clothes on the floor where I hazardously tossed them. I haven't done mail for three weeks now, though, so I might have to go through it tomorrow, pay bills and such... >__>

I have exhausted my brain. Will now go and snuggle in my bed and have my feet stick out over the end of the futon and have my kitty make herself comfortable on my legs. Gooooooood night, all! (actually, 'good morning' now) And yes, do 'Shoot Me!" please~

12:00 a.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Saturday, September 6, 2003
Playlist: [none]

Ichi - "That one with wisdom" Sponsored by www.life-blood.cjb.net

What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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-_____-;;; seriously... shoot me.

11:59 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, September 5, 2003
Playlist: Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu opening theme

Was moping around wondering why Vinita wasn't online (and not even Evil Brother was on either, even though he seems to be on practically all the time), then after about 4 hours, my brain was finally overcome by fatigue and kicked in, and I realized that, Oh yes! Vinita mentioned that Nont was coming back to visit and that she had to clean the house and yeah, that's why they're not on... >__>;; My brain functions sooooo well, doesn't it...?

11:28 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, September 4, 2003
Playlist: Winter Sonata OST

"You frantic toilet-full of contaminated rabbit raisins!"
A random insult as generated by The Official eBaum's World Random Insult Generator.

09:18 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, September 4, 2003
Playlist: Winter Sonata OST

My Winter Sonata OST came in today~ Ish shoooooo pretty~~~ *__*

Vinita, you are now officially my anime pimp! XD XD;;; Last night, she gave me Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu ep.2, because BT was too slow, and then she tried to give me Prince of Tennis ep. 21-22, but our connection kept dying. Eventually we decided to go to our respective beds, but we left AIM on, and this morning, it was dead again... *scowl* But Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu... waaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! luvluvluvluvluvluvluvluvluvluv!!! And yes, Guu is a very scary little girl, and you have to experience it to know what it's like. It's just not possible to explain the frightening existence that is Guu, and her... uh, stomach... <__<;; And Prince of Tennis is my other soul-sucking anime-of-the-month, cos uh, it's so good? The fandom makes me want to scream, though, because EVERYTHING is frigging yaoi. How fangirls see these things is beyond me. I mean, I kinda saw Oishi/Tezuka, and I could kinda see Oishi/Kikumaru, and Tezuka/Fuji wasn't that far of a leap, and (since I dislike being in denial) there were evidence to base Fuji/Taka and Momo/Ryoma (but the last two make me shudder so I shan't think about that any longer...) Anyway, PoT (heh, pot... *cough*) fangirls are pretty scary...

I have my chem lab on Thursdays, and after that, I'm usually too tired to do anything else for the day. Unfortunately, I had an hour of tutoring to do today, but after that, I came home and decided to just cook (get a decent homemeal for once) and not do anything else. As I was cooking, Alex dropped by to pick up his medicine, which he forgot at our house when he came to visit us yesterday (us refering to Melissa, my roomie~ in case ANYONE has forgotten this...) And he ended up staying for more than an hour, talking and watching me cook. He was going to Simion's house, which is about a block away cos they're building something, and he said that he'd called Simion at 7:10 and said, "I'll be there in five minutes" Then at 7:50, Simion called, and Alex was like, "Yeah, I'm at Angela's house, I'll be there at 8" Then Melissa came home and Alex ended up staying until 8:30. ^^;;;; But it was fun, even though Alex ended up being 'late' by an hour.

08:37 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, September 3, 2003
Playlist: [none]

highly recommended, as stolen from Evil Brother's blog >D

10:01 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, September 3, 2003
Playlist: [none]

Taking the Chem 1A online HW Quiz
*click* hmm, this is an easy one *click* hmm, this is kinda hard, but I can get it with some work *click* *click*
[Quiz is graded]
*scream of horror* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooo!!!! Stupid sig. fig.s!!!!
Taking the Chem 1A online HW Quiz: Second Try
*click* Ooh, lucky, this is an easy one too *click* hmm... I haven't done this one yet... but wait, here's the answer in the student solutions manual *click* *click*
[Quiz is graded]
*scream of horror* NOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooo!!! I mistook micrograms for milligrams!!!

*cough* yeah, so even though I had the right numbers, I wasted two of three tries on the HW quiz... >______>

09:38 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, August 24, 2003
Playlist: Shin Seung Hoon - I Believe

Mwahahahaha... I mean, oh, those poor kittens!

02:00 a.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Saturday, August 23, 2003
Playlist: EXILE - Breezin' Together

EXILE has become popular since I last checked (a long time ago)...

I was bored last night, didn't want to clean house anymore, and was browsing yesasia.com for CDs. Yes, I realize that there are probably better places online to shop, but I hadn't planned on buying anything. Except then I did. XDXD;; *hides face* I ended up buying two Winter Sonata OSTs (that sad sad Korean drama with the pretty *sparkle sparkle* opening theme), ALL of An Jae Wook's albums, and even fangirled hard enough to buy a Kang Ta poster. X3;; It's a bigger version of the cover of the Pine Tree album, which I decided to buy based purely on its cover anyway, so nya~ But I spent more money than I'd intended to, so uh, I think I will refrain from using my debit card for a while ^^;

Gah, classes start in two days, and I still haven't finished making the house into a cleaner and more organized place. I dread chem 1A, which is my very first class, and right afterwards I have Psych 01 and in the afternoon, Chinese drama and Math 1A. Dammit, I didn't realize that I have all my classes in one day on Mondays. I think I will hate Mondays from now on...

Eugene decided out of the blue to come to my house and watch Ringu, which he left at my house. When he arrived, he moved some boxes around in the living room and managed to clear out more space than I ever achieved. Neverminding the fact that he piled things together regardless of whether they were intended for storage or not... We watched Ringu 2, which sucked and wasn't that scary at all. There is still Ringu 3 to be watched, and another scary movie about a cursed doll or something. I'm not really looking forward to Ringu 3, but I do want to watch that other movie. <__<;; just not by myself.

09:21 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, August 22, 2003
Playlist: something by Kang Ta

conversation on AIM:
cousin: are you hungry now....?my mom asks you
me: lol yeah, but i can just eat an apple
cousin: do you need some yoghurt?
me: LOL, can you send me some through the internet??
cousin: i can send some pictures to u.....

that conversation made me laugh so hard, and just makes me happy now, because it's SO like my relatives to worry about my eating habits only a few days after I come back from China. And it's SO like my cousin to make that sort of joke.

08:30 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, August 22, 2003
Playlist:

I got back last Saturday. I'm not really jet-lagged anymore.

I miss my mom. I miss my mom's family, I miss my dad's family, I miss my family. I miss my aunts and uncles and cousins and their constant nagging attention. I even miss the stuffy hot weather.

We have accumulated a lot of crap over the years in our house. It's a bitch to go over them. My new room (my mom's room) is still a total mess, and there are still books all over the living room. But that's not how I'd like to be distracted. When school starts, I will have more to occupy my mind with than how much I don't like to be alone, but I'd like to have finished settling into my new room by then.

My home is too far from the campus. I feel left out of everything.

>__> there's so much crap still to organize... and I'm really hungry...

08:10 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Playlist: same song by Ryo, crooning crooning crooning oh so softly in my head

Oh yuh, I'm back in YiZheng. Forgot to say that. Was in hospital Monday and Tuesday. Monday was blood-sucking and ultrasound, and Tuesday was CT. F---ing... >___> CT was bad. I am unwilling to share my experience here... Bah. *shudder*

oh funny story, my cousin and I have been sharing compies a couple of times. He'll talk to his friends on QQ, and I'll talk to mine on AIM. So, once, I was talking to Eugene cos he was the only one on, and my cousin goes, "Who's that", and I'm like, "oh, that's the friend I told you about, the one who's in Hong Kong right now." And then, I'm explaining to Eugene that I wanted deadaim cos I'm helping my cousin install AIM on his laptop so he can talk to me when I'm back in Ah-merica, and Eugene goes "No one in China uses AIM!!" My cousins sees this, and starts typing with PingYing. The two trades insults back and forth in Chinese and Eugene hightails it. Mwaha, so funny. It's too bad neither of us had deadaim to log the conversation...

09:30 a.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
Playlist: Winter Day Love Song op [sung by Ryo], still

Luuuuuuuuuuuuuv <3 <3 <3 LUUUUUUUUV that song!! *dies*

In Yangzhou, I went on several mini shopping sprees. Got anime VCDs, got CDs, and, uh, empty discs for burning. XD XD I got a KangTa Cd, a KangTa VCD (haven't gotten around to watching the VCDs yet), a AnJaeWook CD and a VCD, EXILE CD, L'Arc~en~Ciel dual CD, Jeff Cheng, uh, *thinks* "Life is..." album by Hirai Ken, and um... I think that's it for now for music. I'll update the anime and manga later. I luuuuuuuuuuuuuv Kangta, mwah, and AnJaeWook, and I looooove that song for the Korean drama opening by Ryo, that I don't know the name of, that croons softly in my mind as a backdrop to my day. *________* so pretty~~~ I WILL find it online, uh, once I get back.

Vinita <3 <3 I got XXXHolic and Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicles~~ *dies of shame*

09:14 a.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Saturday, August 9, 2003
Playlist: Winter Love Song op

It's almost a given that whenever you look forward to something with all of your heart, life tosses you a rotten apple. Sometimes it's got worms in it.

I got a really rotten apple, worms galore.

When I go home, I will have no one to take care of save myself. I have no one to take care of NOW save myself. I haven't felt this lost since I was told I couldn't go back to China in third grade. So this is how it feels to lose your purpose in life. There is so much to what I'm griping about right now, which could begin with coming to America, leaving all my family behind, go on to having two feet planted in two different countries, and end somewhere around being treated like a stranger by your own cousins, who never really paid any attention to you when you were a little kid anyway because you were the youngest and the only girl in that generation so of course you had nothing in common save your name. I hate my father. It's not too far of a leap to claim that everything bad in my life eventually finds its root in him. When I go, I'm losing my mother and my father. And my relatives still treat me like a child. Something never fucking changes. I'm still running after my cousins, hoping they'll play with me and that they'll pay more attention to me than the few perfunctory minutes. Why the fuck was I born a girl.

07:33 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, August 8, 2003
Playlist:

I'm sitting in an Internet Cafe...

Mwahahahaha, a tiny part of me is being moronically and dorkily amused about this.

No, Missy, please do NOT hire a cleaning lady. I value my privacy like a man values his nuts. Gah, sorry, that was dirty... Anyway, move in if you want, but I haven't moved out of my room yet, so you'll have to leave stuff in the living room. Don't clean the house cos I plan on doing that when I get back. I'd rather do it myself. Play with kitty if you can.

Vinita, I'm sorry I never came back. My cousins took me shopping after we had lunch. I'll catch you tomorrow or something... >__> well, your today, my tomorrow... <__< the computer I'm using says the time is 16:39.

Eugene, I'm going to hit you when I get back, because my stupid cousins dragged me to an arcade, and left me all alone, and I was lonely and I HATE ALL VIDEO-GAME PLAYING MALES WITH A FUCKING PASSION!!!!

So, you're warned. Stay out of my sight. Psychologically, this is called displacement, because you play video games too.

...I've forgotten how to speak English... blah. Thank god I can still type.

04:35 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Monday, August 4, 2003
Playlist: something sung by Joan Sutherland

I! Am! Back! Home! Bwah!

Aha, no, I'm not currently sitting in front of my own computer in my USA home, but FUCK I've only had 6 hours of sleep after 26 hours of none. I thought I would have slept on the plane, or at least during the 4 hour car ride after the two plane trips, but no, I didn't sleep at all. I couldn't fall asleep. For one thing, we had seats in the very first row, with the movie screen right in front of us, so it very hard to avoid watching 4 movies in a row, plus getting up now and then to walk Mom to the lavatory and give her her meds. So, right now, I'm very tired. We arrive at my uncle's home really late last night, or really early this morning, and even though I eventually fell asleep, I still ended up getting up early. It's not jet lag when you're just lacking sleep in general. I'd really hoped that my relatives would just help take Mom off my hands, but my uncle's wife seems like she wants me to stay around for a couple more days to take care of my mom. Fortunately, my aunt, whom my mom has been trying to get to America for ages so she could take care of her, really wants my mom to go and stay at her home, so that she can take care of her 24/7. If my mom does that, then I can go to Yangzhou sooner than later, and REALLY feel like I've come back home. My other aunt on my mom's side, the one we stayed with last time we came back, has a cold, so I won't be able to see her for a while. Her son has a fever, my poor little cousin (ah, well, he's 16... so not so little... >__>), so I can't see him for a while either. They don't want to infect my mom, but I think that when my relatives from Yangzhou come to visit my mom, I can go with them, and maybe visit my sick aunt and cousin at the same time, so I don't pass on any diseases to my mom either... I really really really want to go to Yangzhou NOW... >__> but I can't leave my mom yet, cos she wants to visit a doctor, and I'd have to read her medical files to her so she can translate to the doctor... *sigh* I want to gooo...

Ner, I'm very disappointed right now, because I've got computer access, but there is no one on. It says 6pm for me now, on Monday August 4th, but it is really still 3 or 4 in the morning in USA, and people are snoozing away in the warm little beds, dreaming dreams. And here I am, breaking a sweat every time I move, trying not to drown from the humid air (well, actually not that bad...), and wanting to sleep but knowing that I can't manage it comfortably...

06:06 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
Playlist: [none]

Just a short side note to myself regaring that godawful original story I started and never had time to revisit: Tali's waking up scene needs to be rewritten so that he's deaf... Gosh I'm so nice to my characters... >__> but really, who survives hearing an earth-shattering sound, bloody ears, and NOT lose a little of their hearing? I'm putting this note here as if I'll forget it, except I don't think I will, since the words Tali needs to be deaf Tali needs to be deaf has been working itself from a Vague Random Thought into an All Powerful Mental Mantra. So sometime soon, I have GOT to pull out that story and rewrite that scene. The good thing is that for that particular segment, I haven't written past that scene, and none of the disconnected segments will need much revising. Bah, did I say this was a short side note?

02:39 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
Playlist: Illusion - El Hazard Wanderers

I'm aliiiiiiivee!!!!!

Mom's been getting pissy and petty with me, so I've changed my schedule so that I go to the hospital in the afternoon and stay overnight, then in the morning leave as early as I can so we don't start squabbling at each other. She's a LOT better, BEEN a lot better, and she's checking out of Alta Bates tomorrow, sometime. Her doctor says she can make the trip to China that we'd planned to leave for on Saturday, so yesterday I called up her traval agent friend and she brought over the tickets.

I!! HAVE!! THE!!! TICKETS!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Happy happy joy joy!! *kisses Air China tickets*

;___; and we're not paying for them... one of my mom's old co-workers is paying for the tickets... *is deeply moved by the kindness of mother's friends* Anyway, her doctor is prescribing her THREE different kinds of pain medication, so I've been having a bitch trying to get that from the pharmacy.

So, more news is that I have decided to cancel my housing contract with Cal, and Melissa, while she was in the hospital with the stones, offered to cancel hers too, so that she can move in with me and split the rent. And today, she called to say that she's made up her mind, and we're submitting a withdrawal to school for approval, and once that's done, we'll be roommates in my house~ Bwah! SO HAPPY! Hope the school approves it! *crosses fingers* I mean, of course, there's that $150 penalty fee, but we still save money!

*__* ah the feel of a keyboard under my fingertips... I've missed computer access, since I've been running back and fro between the hospital and home and downtown doing errands. But! Today, I came home, realized I've taken care of most of the errands, and decided to put the free time to some good use (been reading, checking mail, eating...) I couldn't be happier. I mean, imminent tragedy is unavoidable, but that's future, and this is now, so HA! HA HA HA HA HA!!

Jen, I got your email. I'll call you tonight, or something. I won't be available from August 2nd to August 16th, because I will be in CHINA!! WHEEE!!! Home! Relatives! Gravesweeping! Shopping! Sweltering heat! Street vendors that'll wring a chicken's neck off right before your eyes! Dodgey-eyed peasants who will sell a fox to you for the right amount of money! One yuan bootlegs! Anybody want me to get anything for them? Manga? Anime? Music? Jade? Lucky charms? Dead chicken? Monkey brains?

Mhmm, before I get carried away and stay online all day, I need to stop and remember to go to the bank, and the library, and dump out some of the fridge's contents...

oh, and Eugene was sick the first three days back in China. I'm so amused.

02:05 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, July 25, 2003
Playlist: First Love - Hikki

>___> Today was such a horrible day... not horrible like bad luck things happened kind of horrible, but more like sudden unexpected bad news horrible. Yesterday, Mom came home from a radiation treatment, and she was throwing up everything she ate. I slept in her room last night, and she woke up at least three times last night, and threw up. Everytime, I had to dump out and wash the basin, then bring it back to her bed so she can use it again. I checked the clock each time, and she threw up in one-hour intervals. so, as you can imagine, I didn't have a great time. Fortunately, I was able to sleep pretty easily and solidly every time, so I don't think I lost THAT much sleep. When I woke up in the morning and looked in the mirror, though, my face looked pale and sallow, so I guess I wasn't completely unaffected. I really shouldn't have gone to work, though, because around 11 am, Sherry and Helen called the office and told me that Mom was at the hospital. They took her to the Herrick campus rather than the emergency room, because the cancer center would take more immediate action, and apparently, they had given her 3 shots of morphine before I finally got there. Needless to say, I left work right away. Kuniko and Esta (church member) were there with her, and the doctors and nurses we spoke to all assured us that there was a room ready at Alta Bates for her and they were going to transfer her there soon. Kuniko and I left after 1 to go home and eat, since Kuniko is diabetic. We got a call from the cancer center that they were transfering Mom to the hospital, so we got there around 3. Since Esta was there, and Mom looked better, and I heard that the pastor was coming soon, I decided that then was a good time to visit Melissa, who was in the hospital for kidney stones. I'd called her dad on our way to the hospital, and he'd told me her room number, and it was actually just down the hall and around a corner from my mom's room, in the oncology/hematology unit. I visited with Melissa for a while until Kuniko came and told me that the pastor had come and went, and I went to stay with my mom. Melissa seemed ok, the first two times I visited, but the third time, she seemed to feel more sick. The doctors apparently decided that they were going to just wait till the stones came out by themselves. All that happened with Mom today at the hospital was that they tried to get her pain level down, and right before I'd left at 8, they'd secured her a morphine drip. I think they're going to try to find out what's making her left arm hurt, what's making her throw up, and what's making her face feel numb. She was really weak at Herrick, but after a couple of hours at the hospital, she looked and sounded a lot stronger, her face no longer pinched with pain. She described the effect of morphine on her as a sensation of floating, vastly different from how I react to the drug. Whatever helps, helps, I guess, although I wish they'd get a real doctor to her, to actually do something about what's going on with her, because I think that she recovers from this, she might be strong enough to get on the plane next Saturday. Oh, did I mention that we were scheduled to go back to China next Saturday? Anyway, am going back to the hospital tomorrow (kinda glad that I didn't have to sleep over, since I don't think I would have slept very well), and Ms. Bled made me promise to call her with updates. And, well, Maryam is supposed to be back home tonight from LA, so hopefully I can talk to her or something. But, well, here I am, back at home again, and I don't think I've ever felt so lonely, except maybe the LAST time I came home knowing the house was going to be empty. I don't think I like the idea of going to an empty house. So, am looking forward to tomorrow, when there will be LOTS of people, even if they aren't coming to see me (Jean, you're coming to see ME, right?? ;___;)

After I got off the phone with Sherry and Helen at the office, I was walking towards the hospital, and I suddenly really really wanted to talk to someone, or rather, have someone talk at me, just to have a familiar voice nearby, and I was looking through my phone list to call somebody, anybody, and I called Maryam, even though she was still in LA, but I ended up saying not much at all, and hanging up because she had people with her, and then I realized that there was really no one else I could call, since the people I would usually go to for comfort were either in the hospital, on a trip, dead, or just plain not available... but then it was ok, because I had Kuniko to talk to all afternoon, about everything and nothing at all. I'm beginning to get a taste of what life after Mom is going to be like.

Oh, peeps, my cell phone number changed again, so call me at home or something to get my new number...

08:33 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Wednesday, July 23, 2003
Playlist: [none]

Because I KNOW you check my blog, here's a little message just for you: Do you realize that the last time you blogged was more than a month ago? I mean, yes >__>, we talk at least 3 or 4 times a week and that's quite a bit considering we have to catch each other online and all that, but a MONTH! *nag nag nag* Your piccies are dead again, btw. And I want news about kitty, ok? (name it Sushi! XD I don't care if it's a tabby or calico or both <- O_o but just name it Sushi!)

12:11 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
Playlist: Radio Alice

My TV must be the loneliest appliance in our entire house. Even the toaster sitting in a cupboard gets more attention than it does. Oh, alright, maybe that's not true, but at least I'd look at the toaster every other day and contemplate having toast for breakfast if I ever get up early enough to have breakfast before I go to work. The TV, on the other hand... I watch anime on the computer now, and we haven't rented any videos in a long time, cos you know, Mom's blind now, so there's no point. Sometimes, when I walk past Blockbuster or MovieImage, I glance at it and remind myself that I have to rent The Cat's Meow sometime, or maybe browse the shelves for movies that came out recently that I haven't seen, because I DO get bored at home, when I'm not busy. But I don't, because I feel bad about being able to watch TV when Mom can't.

12:32 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, July 20, 2003
Playlist: kuukiryodan - D.A.I.

Maryam: No one’s responded with LJ code ... Jean might have one?
me: lol I asked her already
Maryam: oh
me: and she got mad at me cos she saved it for me for two years
Maryam: she doesn’t have one?
me: and two weeks ago someone asked her
Maryam: oh geez louise.
me: and she figured I was never going to get one, so she gave it away
Maryam: *SIGH*
me: it's rather amusing, now that I think about it, though it was rather maddening at the time
Maryam: sure. amusing
me: cos I told her that I'd get one EVENTUALLY
Maryam: uh huh, AFTER TWO YEARS
me: you know how I am, I say it'll get done eventually, it WILL get done eventually, just not in the immediate sense
Maryam: lol.
me: more like.. a couple of decades, give or take a few months, but I DO get it done; just have to slow down your sense of time
Maryam: ... ask missy? she has a lot more LJ friends than i do
me: I haven't been able to get a hold of her
Maryam: hmm… how annoying
me: lol yeah, kinda, but I don't particularly mind
Maryam: I swear... I’ll find u one. There’s this girl that has some, she's just on vacation right now
me: some??? I thought you were only supposed to have one?
Maryam: yeah, she's a paid account. They have many. They get 2 or 3 a month, I think
me: O__o whoaaa...
Maryam: yuh. I’m looking for ppl w/ paid accounts right now :-
me: ... what is this, LJ's attempt to take over the world?
Maryam: lol. what do u mean?
me: I mean, they're controlling access to LJs. They're controlling the means of starting one
Maryam: oh, it was only because too many ppl were making them constantly
me: but they give paid accounts a couple every month
Maryam: so the servers were SO SLOW
me: no, let me finish my theory
Maryam: lol. okay. sorry. go head.
me: and the paid accounts dish them out like ambrosia to the starving
Maryam: lol. yes.
me: and those people, in turn, through this act of goodwill and sharing, will laud the merits of LJ
Maryam: uh huh
me: and eventually, everyone in the world will be clamoring to get one and gather at the feet of those paid-accounters begging like little puppies who don't have cute eyes
Maryam: uh huh
me: just for that little, all powerful thing called a code
Maryam: (this is a little much, dont ya think?)
me: (i'm on a roll here)
Maryam: aha funny :-D
me: and eventually, people will have realized that it's better to have a paid account and pay loads to have access to more and more codes, cos think about it, little codes can be traded for big favors
Maryam: its actually like a dollar a month
me: and LJ is sitting there, raking in the dough
Maryam: for a paid account :-
me: (shush, i'm liking my theory)
Maryam: but, yes. LOADS
me: (shush, i say, shush!)
Maryam: yes.
me: so! eventually, LJ will have complete control of the blogging world
Maryam: of course. by the by...
me: because people's idea of hte importance of a code will have been blown way out of proportions
Maryam: why do u want an LJ now ?
me: lol fine, i'm done
Maryam: lol did u know...
me: oh, i wanted to be able to post on the berkeley LJ
Maryam: there’s an LJ magazine.
me: O___o see!! they're taking over!
*snips random bit*
me: i mean, they're holding onto the code liek it's so precious! see, my theory applies here!
Maryam: lol. ITS GOLD
me: people think it's more important than it actualy is!
Maryam: its more valueable then gold
me: exactly!

08:43 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, July 20, 2003
Playlist: Kirei na Kanjou - Noir [Arai Akino]

*snaps fingers* PAVLOVIAN CONDITIONING!!! That's the phrase I've been trying to think of for the last two weeks or so! *is truimphant* I could always remember the first part, Pavlovian, but the second word always eluded whenever I tried to think of it, I kept on saying to myself Pavlovian Pavlovian Pavlovian and hoping that I can jump that second word and surprise it into revealing itself to me, but alas, until today there was no luck. I kept on coming up with words like 'reaction' (Pavlovian reaction?) and 'training' (Pavlovian training?), and I knew none of them sounded right. And just now, I don't know what acted as a trigger, but I suddenly thought "Pavlovian" and immediately thought "Conditioning". Aha, mental block now removed, I hope?

07:30 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Sunday, July 20, 2003
Playlist: Full Moon Prayer - Core of Soul

I'm always reading about how people can't do this or that correctly when they're distraught or distracted or tired or otherwise mentally or physically impaired. I've never had much problems going about in life when a vice plagued me, so I've always thought that authors exaggerated such occurences as, oh I don't know, a rule of writing? You know, stuff like 'blood draining from her face as she heard the horrific news' or 'his hands shook as he opened the long-awaited letter' or any other sort of descriptive passage dealing with the amount of impact an event has on a character. So, as I don't blush easily, am too healthy to have 'blood draining' out of my face, is pretty much stolid under pressure, and not exactly prone to being surprised, much less fainting from one, I didn't think those things happened to normal people. (ah, see how self-centric I am? the world revolves around me, in my world; this blog is paltry proof of that) But following recent events, I discovered that it was on the little details where I would exhibit those little evidences. For example, I can never chop vegetables as neatly or evenly when I'm tired and distracted by unwelcome thoughts, and more often than not, I'll look down at the chopping board and realize that there were extremely uneven pieces of greens or leeks awaiting their grisly burning death in the frying pan, and when I tried to amend that, I end up making them look even more ugly and uneven that they were before. Other little details have also made themselves known to me over the course of the last few months, such as an increased lack of ability to type well due to mental and physical duress, or the occasional weird looking handwriting that emerges when I attempt to use a pencil or pen.

Nothing like a little journey of self-discovery, and finding out that you're even more quirky than you thought, mentally, habitually, and circumstantially.

05:44 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Playlist: Obsession - See-Saw

Hmm, you know how people in America have childhood memories involving Sesame Street or Barney *suppresses shudder* or (godforbid) Teletubbies, and fairly tales that their parents read to them or nursery rhymes that they recited in kindergarten, and they grow up knowing bits and pieces of American society life and other general things that is very much a part of background life? The kind of things that an immigrant has to learn to survive, or may never learn at all? Well, I have no fond memories of Sesame Street, or nursery rhymes or general American life knowledge, the kind that Maryam is usually generous enough to impart to me (I swear, she knows the randomest things about everything, more useful than not), but what I DO remember fondly about my childhood (define: the first six or so years of my life when Mom and I lived pretty much alone), involves very reluctant piano lessons, learning famous poems by famous dead Chinese poets every morning, being lulled to sleep by tales from the big book of 365-stories-for-every-day-of-the-year-except-on-leap-years, which weren't so much fairly tales and fantasy as they were anecdotes of mathimatical and scientific knowledge (>__>), and this tv show that all children my age (then) idolized with a seven-pieced puzzle as its name. *__* I remember that show not, but I remember who hosted it, since at the time I thought she was very pretty and that I wanted to be like her when I grew up, pretty and elegantly-spoken. Of course,I hate kids now, and I actually did meet her a few years ago. She wasn't all that glamorous, since she was off stage. ^^; Actually, she taught me something pretty important about brushing teeth: that I have to do it twice a day. My mom brushed my teeth only once a day, so that was normal for me, and one day, the show talked about how important it was to keep our teeth clean as young, impressionable children, and the host asked sweetly of the audience, "Children, how many times are you supposed to brush your teeth a day?" and I remember chorusing at the TV, "Once!" and feeling confused and foolish when she replied, "That's right! Twice! Once in the morning and once at night!" Mom, who was cooking nearby, glanced at me ruefully and a bit guiltily, and said, "Actually, she's right, you're supposed to brush your teeth twice a day..." I think I was 4 or 5 at the time, and it's once of my clearest memories, that and being dragged to the piano once kicking and screaming, because I didn't want to practice. (much like that little girl in the Joy Luck Club movie)

Hmm, and I had a point with this... oh well, I guess I'm just rambling, and since Vinita-chan has so graciously just come online (XD XD), I am effectively stopped in my mental tracks, and can no longer continue this train of thought. Ja! *wanders off to chat with clone*

08:28 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Saturday, July 19, 2003
Playlist: Hemisphere - Sakamoto Maaya

Saw a kid from my calculus class yesterday - Nik - and it reminded me that I got my AP score back, and probably should, as a few other people are doing, post them on my blog for posterity's sake.

AP Calculus BC: 4
AP Calculus AB subscore: 5 X3 XD >D

Mom was spirited away by one of her friends who came up from SoCal especially to take her to a spa for two days... at the Claremont, which is a 15-minute drive away. They dropped by briefly just now to pick up some items she's forgotten, like medicine and a toothbrush, and I was treated to the unpleasant discovery that she wasn't going to come home at all tomorrow, not even for a brief stop. So now, I'm sitting at home, in front of my no-longer snottish Dra-chan, moping about because there's no one at home with me, and cat-crazy clone is not online to entertain me... *scowl*

*has the sudden realization that aforementioned clone is probably busy with her new kitty*

I expect pictures soon, ya hear??? *waves fists in the general direction of Texas*

08:13 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Friday, July 18, 2003
Playlist: radio on my cellphone

I don't know if anyone's noticed, but nowadays I tend to blog every couple of days, and all my posts are happy-like, despite the Mom-situation. Work is tiring, and there are a lot of preparations that I have to do when I come home, like packing and organizing Mom's legal/important documents for her, since she can't see anymore, along with cooking and cleaning and such. It keeps me busy, and I go to bed early (most days) because I have to get up at 7 for work the next days. Some days, I'm feeling good, am finished with most chores (or, just don't feel like doing them...), and I come online to chat and blog.

It's Friday! Happy happy! I get to go home in half an hour, cook dinner maybe, and if I feel like it, I'll deal with some bills and such before I go to the YMCA, because I'm still feeling stuffed from the ice cream social at work on Wednesday (@_x two pots of hot fudge and caramel and many many other ice cream condiments, including maraschino cherries...). And if my knees are going to break on me, I can cycle and read my book at the same time. I finally got Angelica from the library, after maybe 2 months on the waiting list. Seeing as Sharon Shinn didn't have much to work with in terms of the plot except for the folklore mentioned in the previous Samaria books, she's doing an ok job with this book. I don't enjoy it as much as Archangel or The Alleluia Files, but I like it better than Jovah's Angel

Was date-stamping a mail piece just now, and realized that someone was returning pictures of my supervisor's new tabby kitten, which is 6 weeks old, fluffier than freshly-spun cotten candy, and curious as hell. He reminds me of my kitty when I first found her, except my kitty was better groomed. He looks so awkward and disoriented and as if he's only capable of crab-like movements *___* ish soooo cute... *is incapable of further speech*

04:18 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, July 17, 2003
Playlist: a Core of Soul song (have yet to find out the name)

Lo! Clone! *laughs* I have kitty piccies, finally! Wanna see my dear sweet Keiko? XD I have pictures of her pawing at the bathtub drain.

07:40 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, July 17, 2003
Playlist: [none]

FuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckFUCK!!! As if I didn't have enough problems already! Lawmakers are STUPID!!

03:11 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, July 17, 2003
Playlist: the victorious sound of imaginary trumpets

I think... *pause* I think it's working...

[insert brief awe-filled silence]

Mwahahahahaha!!!

02:30 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, July 17, 2003
Playlist:

-___- ok, looks like not everything's working out too greatly... a quick venture into the enetation forum tells me that the problem has occurred before with other users... many many many many times... *sighs*

02:20 p.m.

"It is a vulgar error to suppose that America was ever discovered. It was merely detected." - Oscar Wilde
Thursday, July 17, 2003
Playlist: Rakuen no Tobira skipping merrily about in my mental CD player

>__< I think, I hope, I am almost 100% sure that my comments thingy is now working... someone go check...

02:08 p.m.