trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Sunday, February 9, 2003
Playlist: My Faith - Day After Tomorrow

Ivy IMed me earlier:
PrincessXOXO708: hi
KuroiTsubasaKei: hi
PrincessXOXO708: are you going to senior prom?
KuroiTsubasaKei: eh???
KuroiTsubasaKei: what's with this all of a sudden??
KuroiTsubasaKei: O_o
PrincessXOXO708: just wondering
PrincessXOXO708: cuz i arleady planned junior prom
KuroiTsubasaKei: .. ^^
KuroiTsubasaKei: heh.
PrincessXOXO708: and i'm just wondering if you're going to senior prom
KuroiTsubasaKei: well, I don't really want to
KuroiTsubasaKei: but I guess i should
PrincessXOXO708: what's with all the faces lol?
PrincessXOXO708: you shoulddd??????
PrincessXOXO708: are you being forced to?
KuroiTsubasaKei: *shrug*
KuroiTsubasaKei: no
KuroiTsubasaKei: but, I guess I should
KuroiTsubasaKei: i mean, prom only happens in high school, after all
KuroiTsubasaKei: might as well experience it once
KuroiTsubasaKei: ( then go home and vow never to do it again)
PrincessXOXO708: lol
PrincessXOXO708: ummmmm
PrincessXOXO708: u dont need to vow
*snipes some insignificant details*
KuroiTsubasaKei: a lot of this stuff just needs money to get it down
KuroiTsubasaKei: I'm not worried
KuroiTsubasaKei: the hair, tho...
KuroiTsubasaKei: actually, I'm not sure what I'll do
PrincessXOXO708: oh well
PrincessXOXO708: down is cool
KuroiTsubasaKei: I might just cut it really short so I don't have to do anything :D
PrincessXOXO708: you can curl the ends
PrincessXOXO708: and alllllllll that
PrincessXOXO708: nooooooooooooooooooooo
PrincessXOXO708: dont do THAT!!!!!!!
KuroiTsubasaKei: LOL
KuroiTsubasaKei: i know i know
KuroiTsubasaKei: i'm just kidding
PrincessXOXO708: whewwwwwww

but I really do want to cut my hair really short
03:04 a.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 8, 2003
Playlist: We Will - EXILE

ahhh, what to say, what to say? So many things have happened in the last 24 hours. Amusing things, scary things, maddening things, tiring things. Nothing too dramatic, actually, but I still feel like a millions things have happened. Lessee, the last entry was cut short because I was in computer art class, and the bell rang. So, yeah, by now I have forgotten where I was going with that thread of thought, but I think I got enough across that I will have an interesting conversation with you because we never did have a change to talk 'genderswitch' out (and I've thought of more to say). Anyway, I wanted to go to YMCA after school yesterday, but I got home and mother said, "Let's go get cat litter, then we'll go cut your hair. I already called the salon." So off we went, got the kitty litter, and then drove to R99 to get our hair cut, because according to my mother, my hair lost its shape. I decided to have my hair washed too. The salon does two shampooning and one conditioning. TWO shampoonings! What a waste of shampoo on such unglorious hair as mine (although Melissa says my hair is pretty :3). I told them to 'restore shape to my hair', and cut my bangs straight (I cut them myself a while ago and it ended up ok, but not perfectly straight). They misunderstood me and cut all of my hair straight, in the back, where it HAD BEEN rather pretty, growing with a downward slope, tapering to a gentle point at my midsaggital section. Now it's all straight. -_-;; Ah well, they did cut my bangs straight, and they thinned my hair; it was getting too thick again. Then the hairdresser (Lulu, her name is, who does my hair everytime I go, and does a great job of it) blew-dried my hair. It took her 20 minutes. TWENTY MINUTES! To DRY my HAIR. She kept on brushing some strands out, drying that, then brush some other strands out, dries that, and so on and so forth. She said that it was good for the hair. Anyway. >_> While mother was getting her hair cut, I went to look at books. Started reading Basara because I got the first chapter from online and thought it was pretty good. Found the second volume of that published One Piece doujinshi... *___* Too bad I didn't have any money on me. After that, we shopped for food, rushed home, and I managed to sell three dinner tickets for Asian Graduation fundraising to neighbors next door (Sherry, Stephen, and Beth).

They were showing "The Ring" up at Cal for only $4 last night, and Maryam arranged so that us, Eugene, Jennifer, Kevin, and Joe would go see it. We had dinner first, at an Indian buffet place. Alex came too, but he didn't go see the movie. Everybody met at my house first; it was a mess. Not my house. The people. At one point EVERYONE was in my tiny room, poking at my stuff, commenting on my bed (e.g. lying on it, sitting on it, talking about how hard/soft it is, touching the big fur/not-fur blanket that I have over my comforter), looking at my manga, accusing me of my *cough*pink*cough* posters I have on my walls (I meant to take them down a long time ago! Really I did!) It was... crowded. When we got to Cal, there were two unbelievably long lines: one for getting tickets, one for getting in. Apparently it is $4 for the general public, but only $1 for Cal students. It was at Wheeler Hall, and Maryam reassured us that we would be able to find seats, since they wouldn't sell more than full house. And it WAS full house. We're lucky we managed to find six seats near each other. Three of us sat in a row right almost right in front of the other three. The movie itself...

OH MY FRICKIN' GOD The HORROR. The CREEPINESS. The UTTER WEIRDNESS. I think it was Maryam who said that whoever screamed first had to pay a dollar to everyone. ^^;; So, we all watched ourselves during the movie and tried hard not to utter even a squeak, but all the tension that was built up throughout the movie (not counting the whimpering throughout the well scenes) broke free when the little girl in the video climbed out of the well and started walking towards whatshisnameNoah. And when she popped out of the TV screen... *many shudders* Ah. Maybe I should summarize the movie a little...

*S*P*O*I*L*E*R***S*P*A*C*E*

So, we are introduced to two girls, sitting in a bedroom, talking about a video that kills you a week after you watch it (also, the phone rings . The phone rings, and one of the girls becomes very frightened, and of course, she has seen the video along with three other friends. Some boring stuff happens, said girl has weird experience with her TV turning on by itself *que suspenseful music and sudden sound effects and TOTAL QUIET in the audience* Girl runs upstairs, sees water leaking out from her room, opens door, and her TV is on and she screams. Then scene cut to a classroom and there is collective release of breath from audience. In comes Rachel, single mother who is late picking her son Aidan up. Teacher shows Rachel pictures Aidan drew, dipicting her cousin (the girl who saw the video at the beginning) dead and buried (this is three days after the girl has died), and informs her that the pictures were drawn before the girl was dead. Rachel and Aidan go girl's wake, Rachel's sister begs her to find out why her daughter died for no apparent reason. "I saw her, Rachel. I was there." says she, then a fast flash of girl's corpse when her mother opens a closet. *insert some gasps and screams and whimpering from the audience* I caught only a glimpse of it (I shut my eyes almost right away), but it was... pretty bad. Shruken and rotten and this intense look of horrorifed desperation on her face... What topped it off was that her hair looked normal, compared to the rest of her body, so it gave the corpse back some semblance of humanness, as opposed to a monstrocity, which, IMO, would have been slightly easier to deal with. So, Rachel begins almost right away, finds out from friends of the girl that she had been watching some video at a mountain cabin with friends (who 'incidentally' are all dead), and the story of the video is told over again. Rachel sees picture of niece at mountain cabin, last picture is blurred, after they'd watched the video. Rachel goes to the mountain inn place, rents the same cabin and finds the video, and as the sun goes down and the light shines through a blood-red maple tree to bath the room in a red hue, she... watches the video. The video begins with a picture of a ring of light, then static and then strange and disturbing images such as a woman in the mirror, same woman letting herself fall off a cliff, a ladder, a dead horse on the beach, a chair, a finger pushing against something and the nail breaking off, writhing maggots that turned into writhing human bodies, the ladder falling, and other pretty morbid things. Then the video ends, and the phone rings. She picks it up, having heard about this part as well, and hears a voice saying that in seven days, she will die. She goes back home with the tape, freaked out, and calls her 'friend' Noah, and shows him how when she takes her picture, the face is blurred, just like her niece and her friends. Anyway, she investigates the whole thing, finds out who the woman in the video is, finds out that she had little girl who was sent to a psychiatric institution for some obscure reason. She digs deeper and it turns out that the girl was strange, that her mother had strange visions when she was around her, that because of that, they shut her up in the barn with the horses. Eventually the woman couldn't stand it anymore and killed her 'daughter' by throwing her into a well. Rachel sees this after she and Noah find the well under the mountain cabin, and she falls into it. There's a really creepy part when she's waist deep in water, waiting for Noah to throw her a rope, and the lid of the well moves close of its own accord, and before it is completely in place, she sees the ring of light that is the crack between the lid and the well (truly depressing, if this is what one sees before they are confined to the darkness and death by water), and she brings her hands out of the water only to see a mass of hair (which was the girl's, according to another video she watched), and suddenly an arm reaches out from under the water to grab her (REALLY freaky when you consider the fact that the girl died years ago *insert massive screaming by the audience*). That's when Rachel has the vision about how the girl died. When she opens her eyes, a body is floating up through the water, and she opens her arms and holds the body of the girl. Noah shouts at her from the top of the well, and the body rotted before her eyes to turn into a corpse. She gets saved, the body is given a proper burial. End of story.

Not. When she gets home, and wakes up the next day, she tells her son that the girl has been put to rest, and the boy's eyes go round, and he says, "You weren't supposed to do that. She never sleeps." It's already been a week for her, so she's still alive and doesn't worry, but Noah had seen the tape as well, so she goes frantic and calls his place. Meanwhile, we see at Noah's place that his TV is turning on of its own accord, and that water is leaking out from underneath it, like it had happened for the girl at the beginning. Noah goes closer to the TV, and suddenly instead of static he sees a scene that Aidan had seen in the video (yes, poor boy watched it too, but saw something different from his parents; yes, Noah is his father). It was a view of the well, and after a moment a hand reaches up from inside it and the girl begins to crawl out (which is especially bad because now the audience realizes that she is actually evil and that her real body couldn't climb out of the well). But you don't see her face at all. It is entirely covered by the long black-brown hair that is characteristic of her, even as she was climbing out from the well. She is wearing a white shift, and begins lurching towards the 'camera', closer and closer towards Noah. Noah is freaked out and begins to back away. [By this point most of the audience had lost their head and was screaming like there was no tomorrow] And as the girl looms in the screen, she suddenly brought up her arms and came out of the TV *insert increase in volume of screams* and continues to lurch towards Noah (instead of her face, it looked like the back of her head...). As Noah scrambles away, his hands begin to bleed and fall apart. The girl's skin is white, and bloated, and looks half rotten. She lifts up her head, and a baleful rotten eye glares out. And that's it. Haha, not really. Rachel finds Noah's body (it isn't pretty), runs home and tries to burn the video. She suddenly realizes why she isn't dead and Noah is. It's because she had made a copy of the tape and shown it to someone else, but Noah hadn't, so she lived, and he died (like a fucking chain letter). She made her son make a copy of the tape, and told him that as long as he showed the video to someone else, he would live. That's it. End of story. For real this time.

... We tried so hard not to scream, Jennifer and I. We were sitting next to each other, with Joe on Jen's other side. Halfway through the movie, we were both covering our faces with our hands, and besides a few gasps and whimpers, we didn't really utter any sounds, except for maybe a few strangled screams at some of the really bad parts before the girl crawled out of the well. But all that pent-up terror had to go somewhere, and when the hand reached over the rim of the well and the hair came up first... I think Jen and I started screaming simultaneously, along with maybe half of the audience (and that's a lot of people screaming...). And we kept on screaming... and screaming... and screaming... and screaming... (truly, that scene was long!)

hand reaches out from well
me & jen: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
girl crawls out of well
me & jen: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
girl lurches towards Noah
me & jen: AHHHHHHHH!!!!
girl pops out of TV screen
me & jen: *screams with renewed vigor* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
girl lurches, rotten*
me & jen: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
me: >____< WHY ISN'T IT OVER YET???!!!!

Yeah... during the last twenty minutes or so of the movie, I kept on huddling in my chair and muttering about why the movie wasn't over yet and whimpering because I KNEW the worst was yet to come... My heart was doing weird flip-flops the entire movie, and near the end, when I was absolutely terrified and screaming, it was beating so fast it almost started to hurt. Gawd, I didn't know I could scream like that... it was... a pure and unadulterated girly scream of fear. O__o Soooo girly... So after the movie, I came home and sat on my bed, warpped entirely in a blanket just sat there, leaning against the wall and staring at my desk. I tried not to blink, because everytime I closed my eyes I could see the girl crawling out of the well, and coming out of the TV screen, because those were the two scariest scenes that I had my eyes wide open and screaming. After a while I risked getting off bed and grabbing a couple of manga from my bookshelf before throwing myself back onto my bed and huddling under my blanket. I skimmed the first three volumes of Mint na Bokura and would have gotten to Yami no Matsuei if I hadn't gotten so tired. By then I'd almost forgotten about the movie, so I went to bed. Thankfully, I didn't have any nightmares. The movie was definitely nightmarish. One of the reasons that I found it so terrifying was that I kept on imagining myself in the place of the characters, experiencing the same horror that they were. The worst part was, they'd done nothing to deserve it, and the villain was not some monster or monstrocity of a human, but a little girl so very twisted in her supposed innocence. It really makes you think about what life is capable of throwing at you. No wonder the original Japanese version raked big yen in Japan. They say the remake version (the one we saw) isn't as good, so I'd like to see the original sometime, because I hear it isn't as graphic as the new one... I thought the cinematography was good though. For such a big screen, the picture was amazingly very clear.

*shudder*
09:57 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, February 7, 2003
Playlist:

It is interesting, imo, that while you are so completely evil and say and speak squicky things, that you would not be intrigued or even vaguely amused by the idea of a Zel/male!Lina fic. I have gotten a lot more evil since I met you, and I think maybe I'm surpassing you. (XD I'm still wanting to rub james/snape in, but then you'd just retaliate with that basis for harry/snape). Usually, I would be annoyed with genderswitch for the sake of a het coupling/or such, but the author already likes zel/lina the way they are...

01:52 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Thursday, February 6, 2003
Playlist: Eugene's mp3 player - we traded music today

I avoided compie-chan/dra-chan Tuesday, or at least, I tried to, but Eugene called me up around 9p.m. and asked me to email him something we typed up on dra-chan for the APIC yearbook page on Monday, when he, Jennifer, and Maryam came over to work on the yearbook page (maryam just came because she was bored). So, I had to turn on compie, go online, and send the thing to him over AIM. Then I turned my computer off and went back to editing my Slayers fic.

... XD I finally started writing again. So proud of myself. :3

Anyway, I spent some time online last night typing up the contents of my music folders for Eugene, who wanted some "good music" and wanted me to suggest something. Which is why we traded music today, because he didn't have a CD player and I brought CDs for him. I get to listen to his mp3s in turn. They're quite good. But that wasn't what I wanted to talk about. I get sidetracked so easily. I wanted to say that I haven't blogged for a few days, and now I don't really want to talk about the specific events of the past few days. Call it laziness, call it reluctance to dwell on past events that had seemed interesting at the time but no longer seems quite so much so, call it what you will. I'm recalcitrant about it. But expanding on that thought, I am reminded that a long time ago, back in the dawning of this blog, I had vowed not to rant so much about anime and manga and fanfiction and things like that, because if I did I could go on forever and that rather defeats the purpose of keeping a blog that could record my life, such as it is. But now, after much stalking of this person's blog, I am reevaluating that decision, because being fangirlish is so much fun, and there are so many things I could say. I could divulge my thoughts on my current mangas, anime, music, and the stories that I read, such as they are. Perhaps I will learn to organize my thoughts better and express myself more clearly. I need to learn to stop being a sponge and become more interactive with the things I soak in. (my seven grade teacher once said that I was like a sponge because I just suck up everything she teaches, yes, like a sponge.) I think the reason that I had decided to stop ranting about those things in the first place was because of the audience I getting for my blog, but that rather goes against my belief-hopefully-put-into-practice that one should do things because they want to, not because of situational factors (i.e. taking a class because someone they like is taking it). So, yes, I want to write about the things I like, namely manga, anime, music, and stories, because I don't want to be a hypocrite (kinda hard, seeing as I am literaly a Yin-Yang sign when it comes to personality, the epitome of contradiction), and because I want to control my own stream of consciousness, and because I want to amuse myself.

because, imo, it is so boring right now
01:28 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 1, 2003
Playlist: Tanpopo - Be Happy

*maniacal gleam in her eyes* RAR, it is a m/m Slayers fic, with Lina and Zel, except Lina got turned into a boy! *fang* this is quite interesting. :3 *squee*

*fangirlish glee*
08:12 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 1, 2003
Playlist: Distance - EXILE

...

*croaks* feeeeerrrrrrrrrrreeeetttt...

...

*___* i either really want a ferret, or i really want to BE a ferret
06:20 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 1, 2003
Playlist: Song for You - EXILE

*browsing lina to zel* hmm... *reads fic summary for Mixed-Up Love* "...story is about Zelgadis learning his feelings for Lina and Lina slowly finding out her feelings for him. In the process of all this happening jealousy and suspition are coming from the whole gang about who loves who and who hate who..." Hmmm... *cursor drifts closer to link* mmmnn I hate stories like that... *click*

-___- I'm that bored. Boredom=Extreme Evilness in my book.

Ah. Something I noticed: Japanese dramas are always about love and the "spring of youth". Chinese dramas are always historical fiction, or a deep look into what is "important" in life. Korean dramas are more often than not about family (and the abuse that may or may not happen in it), as well as love stories (although in my opinion the love stories have an equal amount of suffering as actual "happiness"). And American dramas are always either patriotic, or about people cheating on their significants with other people.

v____v
06:06 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 1, 2003
Playlist: Kiss of Life - Hirai Ken

There's another hundred dollar bill sitting in front of me... *eyes red envelope money* I don't see the other one. I'm sure I left it next to the keyboard last night... aa souka, okasan must have put it away for me. I feel rather rich now, except I don't quite know what to do with all this money (aside from spending it all to my heart's content on manga and CDs).

$__$
05:47 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 1, 2003
Playlist: Across - EXILE

-__- eeeehhhh, I still have an insane urge to be a ferret... feeeerrrrrrrrreeeeetttt... dra-chan... feeeeerrrrreeeeettt...

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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-__- I did not cheat.

Sweet Milk Pocky! You're an elitist, since you're
not really suited to the American taste. You're
sweet, as your name implies, but sometimes you
do get a little haughty.

What Kind of Pocky are You?
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Who's Your Inner Florist/Assassin? @ Weiß Versa

What part of Gackt's anatomy are you?
this quiz was made by Ami

feeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeettttt -__-
03:05 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 1, 2003
Playlist: Distance - EXILE

maaa, Chinese New Year is boring this year. -__-

:p
02:56 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Saturday, February 1, 2003
Playlist: fallin' - EXILE

Happy Chinese New Year!

^-^
12:00 a.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 31, 2003
Playlist: Be Happy-Koi no Yajirobee - Tanpopo

<3 <3 koko wa kawaii deshou~~ ^-^ So sweet my teeth are about to fall out, demo, I really like it. I really do. *__* kawaii~~~!

shiawase na~
11:13 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 31, 2003
Playlist: Yogensha - [Chikyuu Shoujo Arjuna OST #1]

I'm bored, I'm slightly over the edge in regards to Minekura Kazuya's series, and there's a hundred dollar bill sitting on the desk in front of me...

I also have an unexplainable urge to become a ferret, but that's not possible.

Wow! You're Diet Evil Ferret! You're adorable and
pretty, but inside lurks insidious plots to
turn the house into chaos, all as a diversion
while you go round up every piece of footwear
to stash under the couch.

What Kind of Ferret Are You?
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I Am

Which tarot card are you?

*whips out her tarot cards* Hm... the Hanged Man is: wisdom, circumspection, discernment, trials, sacrifice, intuition, divination, prophecy. Reversed: selfishness, the crowd, body politic.

... I'm not sure I understand, though I can identify with the symbolic meaning of the Hanged Man (the picture), but ah well, at least I'm a Major Arcana

and when I tried again, I was the Fool
10:35 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 31, 2003
Playlist: futurity - Day After Tomorrow

*doki doki* ah. It's Executive Committee. And Wild Adaptor. *___* I want. I crave. I covet. I drool for. I will gladly sell sou- ah, that is... I will do anything short of selling my soul to have those.

I <3 <3 Minekura characters
10:15 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 31, 2003
Playlist: Early Bird - Chinatsu Yamamoto [Chikyuu Shoujo Arjuna OST #1]

KuroiTsubasaKei: ah
aquastranger: ?
KuroiTsubasaKei: ^__^
KuroiTsubasaKei: hi
aquastranger: hi~
aquastranger: so now you say ah as hi?
KuroiTsubasaKei: lol
KuroiTsubasaKei: maybe
KuroiTsubasaKei: hm, actually, I have an aversion to saying hi now
KuroiTsubasaKei: I just go "ah" and point
aquastranger: why O.o?
KuroiTsubasaKei: *shrug* I dunno, it's boring
aquastranger: that's true...let's invent our own word
KuroiTsubasaKei: hahah
KuroiTsubasaKei: ah well, I'm rather attached to "ah" and pointing at this point
KuroiTsubasaKei: sometimes I just point
KuroiTsubasaKei: or I say "you"
aquastranger: how about..."aiya you ca shao bao!"
KuroiTsubasaKei: Hahaha!!!
KuroiTsubasaKei: "Save me! Ca Shao Bao!!"
aquastranger: *lol*
aquastranger: you still remember ^_^;
KuroiTsubasaKei: of course
aquastranger: FLARE ARM!!!!!!!
KuroiTsubasaKei: "I am internet lion! Watch me roar!"
aquastranger: *lol*

^^;;; Inside joke; you don't have to understand it...

random conversation is fun :3
08:55 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 31, 2003
Playlist: Your Eyes Only - EXILE

Get Your Own Chinese Name. Heh, I entered in my English name and my real surname, and I got some pretty interesting combinations of Chinese characters, most of which would never be used as part of a name, at least not in any names I've seen. Then, because I'm rather suspicious, I went to look up the astrological forecast for Ox this year:

Good Luck Sector: North-Northeast
Take a deep breath and prepare yourself for the year of sheep - It might be better to keep a low profile this year. Things might not be going the ways as you wish and your life might be busier and more chaotic than you expect.  You may encounter many disputes through the year, so try to keep yourself calm and patient and handle them carefully.  And pay more attention to the health of you and your family, especially the elders and patients.  If you are away from home, this might be a good year to achieve something.

Financially, this will be a so-so year.  However, your luck will gradually get better toward the second half of the year.  Watch your expense carefully and be very cautious when you invest. Remember, do not lend money to your friends, if you do, you will say goodbye to the money as well as the friendship. March, August and November are good months for your finance. Your job doesn't seem to go anywhere and you find yourself facing all kinds of challenges and crisis. Remember to control your temper and stop being so stubborn.  As long as you don't get yourself into any trouble, things will get better and better and eventually, there might be an opportunity for promotion later in the year.

Been to a theme park lately?  Well, your love relationship will certainly feel like one roller coaster ride this year.  Patience is the key word.  Remember; don't fight over the small things.  If you are single, there is a chance for a new relationship: if you are married, although there is still small fights here and there, things will be smoother this year.

Say no to any investment in January.  Keep a low profile and stay out of trouble in March and September.  April is a great months.  Everything is going your way.  Choose your friends carefully in June; someone might betray you. And stay alert when you are on the road in December.  Your best months are April and August and your worst months are March and September and November.

Hm... April is the month I'm expecting college acceptance letters, although what if they arrive in March? Is that bad news then?

07:50 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 31, 2003
Playlist: Fallin' - EXILE

*declares stoically* This week has been utterly unsatisfactory and weird in a way words cannot describe. *vein* The worst part is that I have no idea what I'm unhappy about. It's like an itch that I can't scratch. Bah.

Oh, by the way, happy Chinese New Year's Eve, to those of you who celebrate it. It's the year of the goat, and because Kevin asked and I got curious, I went to find the good qualities of those born in the Year of the Goat.

GOAT: Except for the knack of always getting off on the wrong foot with people, the Goat can be charming company. Your are elegant and artistic but the first to complain about things. Put aside your pessimism and worry and try to be less dependent on material comforts. You would be best as an actor, gardener, or beachcomber.

Ah... ok. As a side note, so I don't get sued or anything, the above came from here. And, then, because I was curious as to what the same place said about people born in the year of the Ox (that would be yours truly), I looked at that too.

BUFFALO: A born leader, you inspire confidence from all around you. You are conservative methodical, and good with your hands. Guard against being chauvinistic and always demanding your own way. The Buffalo would be successful as a skilled surgeon, general, or hairdresser.

^-^ I wanted to be a doctor anyway, although I didn't know what kind. I guess now I'll be biased...

being good at Jenga involves skill of one's hands, doesn't it?
07:28 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Thursday, January 30, 2003
Playlist: Ohayo - Hunter X Hunter OP theme

*twitch* Oh my head... *twitch* I've been coming online at a bad time all week. Everytime I come on, I seem to get a headache. Ah, well, I'll just blog some other time...

@__@
09:36 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Tuesday, January 28, 2003
Playlist: Arcadia - Tenku no Escaflowne

First day of second semester today. Was pleasantly surprised to discover some well-liked aquantainces in the new classes that I have. EX: Kristina and Evan in Theoretical Psychology, Fawn and Collan in Computer Art A, and Gabby and Kathryn in Composition. And that's all I really have to say about first day back... ... except...

I GOT A B ON THE CALCULUS FINAL!!! I SCORED ABOVE KEVIN! I SCORED ABOVE SOME OTHER PEOPLE!! 139/173, not bad, not bad. I only got two problems wrong on the multiple choice, and I think I got right almost all of the free response problems that I chose to do. Oh yes, a B in AP Calculus is a good feeling. ^-^ I got an A in anatomy, world media, and poetry, so the only two things left are orchestra and badminton that I didn't check. Ah, things are good. =D

08:10 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Monday, January 27, 2003
Playlist: Out of Orbit

XD XD hi~~ Yes, such a pity I can't bug you about blogging for sometime, such a pity. *mock sigh* but, Okiayu Ryoutarou... Treize? Kurei? INOUVA??? Crawford?? If you ask me, they're all pretty creepy guys, especially Inouva. >_> Isn't he the gay elf? I'm not familiar with the other roles he's played, except Issei, but I've never heard Issei's *cough* real voice. I've only watched the dub version of Please Save My Earth. ^^;; and I only know of Alucard from Hellsing, which I'm not sure is the same thing as Dracula X. And tranquilizers?? Bah, if you had shonen ai doujinshi you'd be excited too, OR, Yoko Kanno goodness~ Of course, none of that really beats the fact that I now have the entire Saiyuki first "season" in manga, in a lanuage that I understand... Ne, have you read the new +Anima chapter?? *___* Oh yeah, in regard to what you said about HP fanfics, I think it's stupid and pointless that authors are rewriting their stories to follow canon, because most of those stories are originally AU anyway. Why bother? Some of the conjectures they come up in regards to HP are actually quite interesting.

Maaa, my first crush happened when I was four, and the object of my affections (or drool, whichever you prefer) was Shiryu from Saint Seiya, whose long purple hair swished when he moved, and whose incessant kicking-at-a-waterfall-as-part-of-his-training-so-that-he-can-eventually-reverse-it-with-his-awesome-fighting-powers was just cool beyond words. And as strange as it sounds, it is possible to fall in love with a non-existant character, because god knows my four-year-old self did it. And, yes, it ispossible to fall in love with an anime character.

This is something that's been pacing itself passivly around my brain for the last year or so. It makes no sense absolutely, because where I got it from doesn't make any sense. But it makes an odd sort of sense to me, in my head, because it's one of those things that you make a gut-jump on, something that you make a random connection with in your head. And it is a thought that is labeled with a "SPECIAL" label in my head, kinda of like how certain people are labeled "SPECIAL" in my mind, because this thought, this contemplation, this idea, grabs a bell in my head and rings it loudly. And while it will seem totally frivolous and pointless when voiced aloud, or expressed in the open in any way (like in the blog for instance), but, scarily enough, I'm afraid that if I say it, I'm making some sort of prophecy for myself. And this is what's been pacing a hole in my head for the last year or so: I'm going to marry someone named Hiroshi.

There, now I've voiced it, and it won't come true. I'll just go check myself into a mental ward now.

-__- am I crazy?
11:28 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Monday, January 27, 2003
Playlist: Kiss of Life - Hirai Ken

I didn't have work today, and there was supposed to be an APIC social, except that got canceled because Jennifer said it was going to rain, but of course, it was my day off and I wanted to do something fun, so I worked my butt off last night at the last minute to arrange something fun to do today. Me, Eugene, Maryam, Jennifer, William, Joe, and Alex went to Kevin's house and watched movies and played. It was fun. We watched Goldmember first, then Maryam wanted to go play basketball at Live Oak, so they went, but Joe and I stayed, because Joe wanted to play Warcraft on Kevin's computer, and I wanted to watch another movie. I read Spirited Away first, the screen-cap version that Kevin has, then started watching The Matrix. Then they came back with Eugene dragging his right foot behind him. -__- it looked really swollen but of course he refused to do anything about it. We also watched some clips from FFX and the guys played a lot of video games, then most everyone started watching Pulp Fiction, which was good. Anyway, it was a good day, and I'm kinda glad I arranged it, even if I spent a lot of time calling back and forth between people. I can't say that it was a lot fun, because I can definitely think of better times, but all in all it was a good way to spend semester break.

Mom was on the phone earlier with someone from China, who was coming here for visit, and apparently she's going to go pick them up at SFO when they come, on January 31st, which is Chinese New Year's Eve. If I could hang out with friends that day, or go to SFO with my mom to pick up her friends, I wouldn’t know which to choose. On one hand, I love going out with what I dub as my "standard crowd", but on the other hand, I’m too much in love with the airport to miss such an opportunity. I love the feeling of excitement that infuses my body when I go to the airport, because more often than not, my mind can deceive me into thinking that I’m actually going somewhere. Usually, the imagined destination would be China, and if I allow myself to fantasize that far, I can almost see my cousins and aunts and uncles waiting anxiously as I step off the plane. I really like driving to the SFO. There’s a stretch of highway between downtown SF and the airport that I particularly like, where on one side of the road is part of the inner bay, and if you’re driving early enough in the morning, you can just see where the eastern horizon turn a gentle violet before the sun rises. That early, everything is quiet, and there are hardly any cars about. It’s just you, and the world before you. But I think what really has me excited about airports, and SFO in particular, is that every time I go, I am almost going home.

just a little tired
11:05 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Sunday, January 26, 2003
Playlist: [none]

>_> Everyone is... er... excited over the D.N.Angel seiyuus. It looks like a lot of people are on the DNAngel ML... well, the only issue I have is that Dark's seiyuu voiced Jinnai in El-Hazard. XP Jinnai... Dark... how squirmly it seems...

05:22 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Sunday, January 26, 2003
Playlist: [none]

Wahh! >_< No! No! Wrong! You're wrong! I'm innocent! I did not help steal your book! I was downstairs on the first floor getting a book I'd placed on hold, and when I came upstairs to find Jennifer, Kevin, and Joe, they were hiding behind the bookshelves watching you being quietly paranoid.

05:18 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Sunday, January 26, 2003
Playlist: [none]

I!! * HAVE!! * EARTH GIRL ARJUNA!! * CDS!! XD XD XD XD XD!!! *bounce bounce* YOKO KANNO AND MAAYA SAKAMOTO GOODNESS!! I feel so spoiled~ XD XD

And the other good thing happened today when I went to check Vinita's blog, and she blogged! XD XD And just when I was about to nag her too. >D

So, good things happened lately, yes?? Finals over with, good, yes? Getting my luvly wuvly PRECIOUS Saiyuki books, good, yes?? And finally getting the Arjuna OSTs, good, yes?? *hugs self* shiawase na~ Oh yes, and that delicious delicious One Piece doujinshi... *____*

a lovely day, all in all
05:05 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 24, 2003
Playlist: Out of Orbit - TM Revolution

The Evil Overlord List ^____^ Most crackalistic, this is.

read it! read it!
08:10 p.m.

trying to get a glimpse of herself in the reflection of passing cars
Friday, January 24, 2003
Playlist: Cocoon - Pierrot

*bites lip* I'm not sure whether to be really angry with myself or to just collasp into a moaning heap. I just typed up about...*chews lip* I'd say 8 or 9 pages of an entry... And because the entry messed up one of the lines on my layout, I started to snipe it into different parts to be posted as separate entries, and I accidentlly deleted one of them. It was a really stupid thing to do, but... eh, well, I write mostly to get my feelings out, it wasn't necessary that the entries be posted, I suppose, although I'd say Vinita and Jean are going to be deprived of severe entertainment.

Anyway, I got my Saiyuki manga, which was one of the things I talked about in my 9-page entry, now dead and gone forever. It was wonderful reading, to say the least. I also found, and bought (still to my amazement) One Piece shonen ai doujinshi. Published, organized doujinshi. XD XD There are only two Zoro/Sanji stories in there, but the rest are funny.

*sigh* was there ever such a fool as I?
05:47 p.m.